Join me this weekend for a Workshop!

Are you fed up by the way media portrays the “ideal”  gender-stereotypical female/male body?  Are you constantly feeling like you have to measure up to this completely unrealistic ideal?  Are you yearning to accept your body and redefine beauty and health in your life (and our society)? Do you want to reclaim greater self-love and positive self-regard? Then, you really want to check out my workshop called, “Demystifying the Perfect Body. Come join me at the Center for Sex Positive Culture in Seattle, WA (July 13th from 7-9pm).

Tickets Available 

http://www.strangertickets.com/events/15285048/demystifying-the-idea-of-the-perfect-body

Join Me for a Workshop!

Are you fed up by the way media portrays the “ideal”  gender-stereotypical female/male body?  Are you constantly feeling like you have to measure up to this completely unrealistic ideal?  Are you yearning to accept your body and redefine beauty and health in your life (and our society)? Do you want to reclaim greater self-love and positive self-regard? Then, you really want to check out my workshop called, “Demystifying the Perfect Body. Come join me at the Center for Sex Positive Culture in Seattle, WA (July 13th from 7-9pm).

Tickets Available 

http://www.strangertickets.com/events/15285048/demystifying-the-idea-of-the-perfect-body

Finding the Delicate Balance Between Honoring Self and Honoring The Relationship

We’ve been in the lifestyle for about 2 years and nine months.  In that time us Roses have traveled many valleys and mountain peaks.  If there is any truth in this lifestyle, it is that one opts to living in the grey when one opens up.  I hear a couple major reasons for being in open relationships – and particularly in the swinging lifestyle.

• “You cannot get everything you want from one partner.”
• “Sometimes, you don’t want to have a serious commitment to a partner.  You just want to have fun.”

Red Rose and I are learning another reason for being in the lifestyle:  It goes something like this:

“We want to honor our true, authentic selves.  The lifestyle gives us a place to explore, play, and honor our untapped potentials.”

That said, we highly value each other as primary and special to each other.  If something didn’t feel right between us for some reason, all other activities would cease until we could work out important issues.  For me, I’ve learned that I need time to process new information.  I my need a little time to accept a new relationship dynamic or lifestyle activity.  After a determined amount of time, I will be able to resume activities and experiences.  But, as you can see, slowing down and discussing the matter first is an important step.

One way or the other, experience seems to suggest that the dance of an open relationship is a delicate balancing act: partners are forever trying to find that ideal balance between honoring the self and honoring the relationship.

A Letter to Mark an Amazing Journey

Red Rose wrote this to his pole dancing instructor when he found a pole dancing studio that would accept him as a student.  I HAD to post it.

“Not to long ago, I was at a party that had a pole for an amateur strip contest. My wife got me to enter since she witnessed my interest and I became the only male dancer performing. The DJ knew me from a past party and purposefully started a special song for me; “Too Close.” Without fear or hesitation, I came to the pole when it was my turn and something happened. Everyone else disappeared and I became very one with myself. My movement synchronized with the song and I slowly became more aware of the people cheering me on. I wasn’t able to climb the pole but the pole became my partner and assisted me to flow with the song. Later that evening, I had several women and men approach me to praise me for what I did. It was a special moment for me. Since then, I have been searching for instructors that would allow me to delve into that part of me through a unique form of dance I never thought I would embrace. The prospect of gaining a deeper understanding into myself while gaining increased strength to perform has become a strong motivation to pursue pole dancing.”

*I wrote a response to my Red Rose:

My Red Rose,

I told you to never give up on this.  It is an absolute pleasure to see you through on this amazing journey.

Love you,

White Rose

 

An Opening

There’s an opening in my life today. I’m not sure how or why now, but I’m making amends with my past. I see things with my adult eyes. I’m reconnecting with people I once believed to be enemies. I’m coming back to my younger Self – reminding her of the power she has within. As I write this, tears sting my eyes. I’m in such a soft, vulnerable place. These are MY new connections. I can’t help but feel that I’m only here because of the decision we made 1  1/2 years ago. I still cannot believe how life altering it really was.

Living in the Flames

The flames are calling out my name; A world unknown, dangerous. Yet, I’m attracted to it like the proverbial moth.  In the flames I feel my power, womanhood, and goddess-nature.  I’m fully alive.  The world says it is wrong, weird, and bizarre. The world says I’m weird. Maybe I am. Maybe I choose to be. But, at the end of the day, I have to live for me. I have to make my own choices and live with the consequences. Isn’t that what being an adult is all about?  Isn’t that what being alive is all about?

Another Connection Made…

I wrote to someone today; I said “fear” is synonymous with “separation.”  Well, just yesterday Red Rose and I were experimenting with kinky sex and loving it.  I enjoyed being subjected to pain.  It scared me.  I was afraid it meant I would lose my power – despite the fact that other bottoms and submissives  state this is not the case.  If and when others come to me with a similar experience, I will communicate that it is important to be authentic and there for oneself.  Just a thought…

An Awesome Thought and Insight

Coming from an Ex-Pleaser:

Although I still sometimes get the urge to please the people I love, it wouldn’t be fair to either them or me if i did.  Why?  Because, they wouldn’t be getting all of me.  Bring myself down a level or two, I would not be my fully present, true, Goddess Self.  Like I said; that is neither fair to me or the people I love.

The Humbled Observer

I saw an angel last night. His heart was open – he was touched by another soul. I felt that other connection and the depth of the experience. It was beautiful. It was a privilege to witness. It was a privilege to comfort him in his realizations of himself and his process. I was changed -recognizing the profoundness of the moment- not just him.

Patchwork Quilt: An Inner View

I look inward and realize I am part of every community and part of no community. I am truly living in a league of my own. Yet, me – this ultra unique “outlaw” – to borrow my counselor’s affectionate term for us – couldn’t feel more connected on an emotional, spiritual, and mental level. Still, when I grow – and I grow at an exponential rate it seems – I can’t find anyone exactly like me to turn to for support. I can’t begin to  describe to you how confusing it feels sometimes to  be completely a part of something and completely isolated and alone. So, what can I do? How can I keep my sanity and my sense of self?

I realized something today. Call it an awakening. Each person that I’ve befriended from each different community is a piece of the grander puzzle of existence. Each person offers his/her support from his/her point of view – much like the patchwork in a large quilt.  Being me, I can accept each individual’s part of the quilt. In my own time, I can make my own quilt from each person’s advice, support, and experiences. All that really matters is how I make meaning from my relationships and connections. And, I am privileged enough to see from and choose from multiple points of views.